I think one of the best arguments against the existence of a personal god is the fact that suffering is so isolating. God's people dropping out of your life like flies. Me and many others on the bottom experience is that the people who claim to be closest to God are...
Money in Your Brain
I want more money. Money in the real world lets you go on all kinds of fun trips (at least pre-COVID) and gives you all kinds of health and security. Money in your brain does something similar, you can spend it to produce beliefs in happy delusions. That's why...
Things That Point Toward Materialism Being True
I've been over exposed to religion my entire life and I try to believe in all that stuff but it's like an algebra problem you suspect you got wrong but you don't know why you got it wrong or have the intelligence to derive the correct answer. Materialism is the idea...
holding territory
the lower you go the more your life resembles war your responsibility is to hold territory and the rest of the world's responsibility is to hurt you for doing so I was meditating on this poem and thinking about how the more disabilities you have the worse you get...
The Supernatural
it's difficult to believe in the supernatural unless they're going after you I believe our brain blocks out the supernatural the same way a neurotypical's brain blocks out extraneous stimuli. Of course this is offensive to philosophical materialists as well as...
ideation
Great article on suicidal ideation. At 27, I’ve settled into a comfortable coexistence with my suicidality. We’ve made peace, or at least a temporary accord negotiated by therapy and medication. It’s still hard sometimes, but not as hard as you might think. What makes...
Fight or Flight
Great post on fight or flight from The Realistic Autistic: This reminded me of a theory I read years ago regarding deer, humans, and human society. Deer have two modes: calm and upset. They mainly live in calm, unless predators or some kind of threat occurs. At which...
48
Creator of TempleOS, Terry Davis, Has Passed Away Terrence Andrew Davis, sole creator and developer of TempleOS (née LoseThos), has passed away at age 48. Davis suffered from mental illness -- schizophrenia -- which had a severe impact on his life. He claimed he...
compound words
I have been in contact with someone further along in being destroyed by their mental illness. Sadly we are no longer friends. But a couple of things I noticed from her. She would write out each word in compound words. So the site Remedyfind became Remedy Find. I...
God, one or three
If you want to know me you should read this article on a programmer that believes God is instructing him on how to build and operating system. The article rings true because I fit the profile pretty well. Someone who is a programmer, is mentally ill, and has had a...