by lepton | May 10, 2026 | Autism Specific, Matters of the Heart
Psychologists seem to think you can keep composure and the swirling emotions you feel will be able to surface later, where you can deal with them in a silent, socially acceptable manner. That may be true for some people but not for me. I guess I don’t deal with...
by lepton | Apr 7, 2025 | Faith, Matters of the Heart, Power Dynamic, Semantics
Fudging the truth is a way you show respect for entities. It’s like when a young mother of three dies of cancer, religious people will mention it and then say, “God is sovereign”. This a sign they are deferring to God. Also, when a high-status person...
by lepton | Mar 7, 2025 | Faith, Matters of the Heart, Mental Illness, Personal, Power Dynamic
I am not learning the lessons from my suffering that those in power want me to. They want me to concoct some kind of redemptive narrative out of all I suffer. I can’t and I won’t. Some of the lessons. Power is the most important thing. Power and...
by lepton | Feb 23, 2025 | Personal
I have come to think of success in the same way as the minivan thermometer. The minivan thermometer displays the indoor and outdoor temperature. Translating to success, that translates to my definition of success and society’s definition of success. I am...
by lepton | Feb 23, 2025 | Personal
Thirty six years ago today I begin keeping a journal. I did not keep it up my entire life, from age 9 in 1989 to age 12 in 1992. And then started my diary in April 1997 and went through 2003. Then my Xanga blog was a stand in for my diary from 2003 to 2013. Then I...
